I was having a lot of personal struggles on Thursday. I just
felt like I'm trying so hard to do my best but I feel like it isn't good enough
and I'm just a kid out here. I felt like everything I was doing was wrong and I
wasn't helping at all because people weren't listening to me. I spent a lot of
time Thursday night just praying and crying. Then I had some great experiences
this weekend. In my personal study I studied a lot on humility. I came across
some fantastic scriptures that really helped me a lot. In order to help in
God's work, we have to be humble. If I'm having struggles, maybe it's just
because the Lord is helping me to be more humble, and as it says in éter 12,
(this isn't completely correct because I'm translating it from spanish)
"if men come unto Me I will show unto them their weaknesses. I give unto
men weaknesses so that they will be humble... and if they humble themselves and
have faith I will make their weaknesses strengths unto them." I know I
have many weaknesses, but if I will just be humble and have faith in the Lord
he will strengthen me. Sometimes it's hard because it seems like all we can do
is be humble and have faith, but that's the way of the Lord.
This Saturday I got even more personal revelation. We had
the opportunity to attend a meeting in the Buenos Aires West Mission with the
North, West, and South missions along with the missionaries in the MTC here
with élder Jeffrey R. Holland. If you think he's powerful on TV, wow, he's
incredible in person in a chapel. He spent a lot of time talking about how much
he loves us and how much everyone loves us and how that is a responsability to
live worthy of this love and respect. He said every morning from the moment he
wakes up until he goes to sleep he is trying to figure out how to save a
soul... the same thing we do every day. He said in a way, we are Apostolic for
these 2 years. His testimony in the end was the most impactful for me. He said
if you think the mission is hard, it's because salvation is not a cheap
experience. We can't expect it to be easy for us when it was never ever easy
for Him. We are His representatives, and we have been called to do what He
would be doing if He was here in Argentina. This is really good to remember
when I have hard days, when people don't listen, when people don't follow
through with commitments. He had the same things happen to Him, He was even
crucified by them. If we have faith in Him and do our very best to preach HIS
gospel, in HIS way, not our own, we will have success, because as stated in
Jacob 5, the Lord is working in His vineyard with us. It isn't a coincidence
that I'm in Argentina right now, the Lord saved me for this time in this place.
On Sunday we had the entire Guillermo family at church,
which was awesome. They were waiting for us to pick them up when we went to
fetch them. They're incredible, have great questions, and are reading the Book
of Mormon and praying. Danny and Jessica need to get married, but they said
that that won't be a problem, so this week we'll really just need to stress it
and have them make plans so they can be baptized. We would really like to
baptize the family all together, but depending on how the whole marriage thing
works out, because I'm not sure how difficult of a process it is, we can
baptize Bryan and Axel in two weeks and later baptize the parents.
I love you all, enjoy winter... because it's really hot and
I'm sweating right now.
élder John William Garrett
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| élder Cruz and I sporting our fútbol gear that we got super cheap. |
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